A Look Ahead to 2009

Trey and I were laying in bed the other night talking about where we hoped to be this time next year when we're looking back on 2009 and ahead to 2010. We listed several things that we want: We want to be well into step 2 on our Dave Ramsey plan, I want to be about 50 pounds lighter, we talked about how nice it would be to be in a place of our own instead of renting from my sister, and then I jokingly said "...and we'll still only have three children.." (Meaning that 2009 would be like 2008 in that I wouldn't get pregnant and wouldn't give birth...an inside joke because I had babies in 2005, 2006, and 2007) But then all of a sudden my mind went to our friends, little Konner's parents, who at the beginning of 2008 had no idea that their youngest child would leave this earth and go on to be with Jesus. And it struck me that we truly know nothing; we have no idea what tomorrow will bring. We're not promised another day on this earth. We're not promised another year or another day with our children or with our spouse. So what do we do with that? I don't have all the answers. I can only answer for myself for this point in my life. I hug and kiss and rock those sweet babies every chance I get, and I praise Jesus for giving me every single day that I have with them. So my New Year's Resolution is to treasure each day this year and enjoy them to the fullest. I will not wish their lives away by wishing they were more independent or wishing that they would just do this or could just do that or say that things will be easier when they can only..whatever. I will enjoy them now, at the stage where they are; I will enjoy the challenges and drink in those sweet moments that I have with my children. And when I'm starting to feel overwhelmed by their dependence on me, I will remember that the Lord is with me, and I will look above and let His presence flood my soul, and I will feel His peace.